The Alchemy of My Gift

The bad moments in my life or the catalyst was when I had some issues with eating disorders. I was very unhealthy and I just was not happy with how unfit I was. I couldn't concentrate on another other than being stuck in my own world, of unhappy with how I feel visually and physically. I truly was at a loss of what to do about it. I tried so many strategies, hence the eating disorders came to became my unhealthy habits. I was everything anorexic to bulimic, binge eating, and holding my own body dysmorphic image. Then finally, I learned to overcome though all those challenges over the years, alchemizing my unhealthy habits in nowadays, my super healthy habits of being vegan, and physical exercise as my essential routines. With my innovative habits, I continue to impact all that I come across and spread the good message of staying healthy and productive in order to overcome life disasters.




My initial feelings of shock stemmed from others telling me that I was not good enough, and I was not perfect. I adopted the unhealthy thoughts thinking that I was imperfect, and that it was not okay. Nothing was ever good enough despite my healthy weight, trying to look my best, good grades, and being a compassionate person. I was not okay with imperfection whats over. All I saw was the imperfect in my body, mind and soul. I was broken emotionally from being too fixated on my problems instead of just taking a step back to just plainly improve. I wanted fast results. I stopped eating enough, and sometimes I hated myself for eating unhealthy foods. I started to work on my eating habits, so that is what lead me to become vegetarian. Because I know that plants carry high nutrient density. So I continued that patterned, worked on my iron will, ate more vegetables with good sources of protein while taking into considerate of overall health with quality supplements. Then, I am here today still, ever so concentrating on the goods I need and not worrying about feeling bad physically that may tie into my emotions.


With time, my perspective changed from feeling gross from the unhealthy things I eat with my awful self destructive habits to now being aware of the causes and effect in order to lead my actions. I came to realize that my bad habits were actually a life saver oddly enough when I had little to eat. I realized that what I needed were the essentials and not excessive empty calories that did not help with my body functioning, such as watching out for protein, fiber, etc in my diet. I learned that I can feel great by eating as much greens and fruits as I want that are sustainable, and I will not have problems feeling unsatisfied or wanting to eat nor eating too much. My body feels great from all the nutrients I replenish myself with, and I make sure that I can get enough to function while keeping myself decently fit. My bad habits made me grow to adapt and continue to strive for healthier habits, and my routines are quite amazing in contrast to one's typical routine. I now make sure I drink enough water, take my organic or all natural supplements, enough proteins etc for my muscles to function, and optimal calories from all types of plants. I am happy that I continue to adopt this beautiful philosophy that helps me to stay on top of the world, aka problems that may drag me down, will not take over me .


With my determination to continue want to strive for the good in life, my greatest happiness is to share these beauties with everyone and the world. Impacting the world in beautiful ways where I may only do my best makes me feel accomplished and content that I am a good influence, and that we may all appreciate the beauty right in front of us that is everlasting.










In the blue light


I see the greens growing around me


and in it I see beauty residing


Beautifully in between


The clear blue sky


where I clear my mind






Staying honest in my soul


Heart open not alone


With myself and the world


Enticing to belong






Inside this green blue field


Of clear translucent teal


Like green mixed with blue


The ocean swimming with


Underneath the sea and its trees






As I am on the surface


From the dark to the light on purpose


From the bad to the good


The dwelling to the ongoing


Forever I will strive improving






I will make the world beautiful


From the beauty that is now my reality


I see from the things in the dark to the nothing wrong
To create something more for myself and whoever that may also keep strong